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These twists and turns of fate
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~~Wednesday, May 27, 2009~~

3:33 AM

Whenever i see at u, my heart beat faster. I dono how to face u or talk to u. I cant start a conversation with u unlike my normal friends. Everytime i look at u, i tend to turn back away as i had a weird fear that u may saw me looking at u. I really really want to talk to u very much, but i just cant due to some facter before that u said to me... I am lieing if i say i am fine abt it. i am hurt now. theres no path in my life anymore. no lights and colours... its just black and white, plain and simple. i cant forget u. I am sry abt thiis but i really cant after so long. nvm dont say anymore lei caz u will get stress abt this. however everytime when i secretly see u, i had a smile in my heart. Every1 may thought that i am a pervert [ yes i am! hahas just jokin xP ] but seriously seeing u makes my day. There is no chance for me to get close to u but i really, still , really, really, really, really X 10.......... wan be with u. Nvm i am just a failure T.T

today aiyo okok ba. simple and easy life. No fun, no laughter, just daydreaming abt the princess that 1 wanted... lets stop being -.-''' abt this. Skool life -- intensive chinese... i dont mind killing my brain cells just to do practice papers. i just hope that the hard work i, no every1 put, will pay off. i had no 1 to believe now except for my teachers. let my future be in their hands, bony and skinny hands. xD tmr is another pp 1 omfg Gd luk to me and myself and all my friends. Jia yous!

say i am shy, i dont care as i really am, but 1 thing i will nv be shy abt is 'my love for u' i hope u dont know who i am refering to as u would tell me to giv up. I am sry, i cant. U can just take me as a log and hackcare abt me. maybe u will feel better that way.

Labels: failure is me, success is u~

These twists and turns of fate
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~~Monday, May 25, 2009~~

6:26 AM

Aiyo... gt back all papers lei. All nt gd, no outstanding results but only below average results T.T anyway now i still hav to prepare for my eng oral + chinese paper 1 mok exam... zzz shouldnt have slept till now. Wtf lols... nvm, i can just forget about slping today -.-''' Gd bye ~~

Labels: facts u gave is an undieing pain~

These twists and turns of fate
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~~Sunday, May 24, 2009~~

1:03 AM

A week had passed. It seems that i just couldnt get back my confidence. No mood to talk cok with frens, and feeling so different. i just couldnt focus on my chinese now T.T Just feeling weak ba. everytime feel like sleeping, wake up, slp, take book, slp. i just cant face it. I hope i could maybe start my chinese preparation tmr. Hope there is a change of feeling in my heart for me to focus on study.

Labels: Just plain lousy ~

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~~Thursday, May 21, 2009~~

8:47 AM

today script checking day 1... gt 3 days in all including monday next week. Did seriously Bad with deprovement. I better bulk up now!!! i dont want this kind of results for my O level. Basically passed E-math , chem, bio just borderline, and failed ss by 2 marks... Wtf man... it seems that my hard work is nt hard enough thus it didnt pay off. i will make sure i will have a good timetable for my Hell june holidays. better nt think of slacking anymore lei. xD Bye~~

Labels: dont stop... Accelerate to the finishing line ~

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~~Wednesday, May 20, 2009~~

3:04 AM

Wed~
Gt back some MCQ questions' answer. Did badly for Bio and Phy. In less than 2 weeks is Chinese O level examination. Siaaa lah... Cham liao lah... Better start my preparation soon. O level exam so mus nt siao siao le. So will pause blogging for a short period of time till that Exam day is over. T.T
Anyway, wish Alvin Toh from Basketball a sweet happy birthday. though it should be yesterday but no time to blog due to certain wadever reason. Haha 16 lei leh ^^ meaning more matured maybe? So when do things must start putting more effort [ nt saying u didnt put in 100%] but must learn to Put more than 100% xD espically study hor ok? Gt problems can ask me as when i have problems i sure ask u de hahas.
OkOk gtg ... Bye~~

Labels: thats me~, walking aimlessly

These twists and turns of fate
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~~Monday, May 18, 2009~~

2:42 AM

Today seem so different. Its nt like before anymore T.T Further more Chinese O level is coming soon. 2 week. But i am feeling so crushed. 1 week, i should be able to be back to normal ba... needed so time to sort things out. Anyway, just went to see Leon. He is ok now after an operation xD hahas though he cant laugh that much now as it may affect his wound. And he had gt a 3 weeks Mc. Well, he said he will be back after a week's break. After visiting him, our class went for badminton at frontier jurong library. Quite Gd barhs, i am able to relax abit of my mind now. Ok gtg Slp lei, so damn tired after so many things occuring. Bye~~

Labels: u will still be in my mind...

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Sunday, May 17, 2009~~

8:32 AM

Day by day, the flame in my heart is dimmishing. today seemed worst? As i know, i am nt perfect too. Thus i hav always been quite unsuccesive most of the time. As far as i know, i hate losing. Nt games but reality things. Family, relatives, teachers, teammates, friends, classmates and most of all "loveones in my live". Finally i hav been crippled. I feel lik i cant move on anymore? Life seems so bad at times. But i myself know that life is nt perfect. I dont believe in gamble as i always lose[ lack of luck maybe?] nor bet. Thx for the truth and i really appciate it. I will be stronger and Move on. Time is nv waiting. Now i seriously need some space to reflect, and to calm my little self, just a small little time for me to be back to normal. i can of course control my emotions as i am big enough, but my body is just shutting down. my mind is pretty blank now. Seemed no any direction or path for me to choose. No any thinny winni chances... I am tired, real tired now... Let me rest for some days and i may be normal again. Hahas ;D

From wad i know abt myself, my choice will nt change. I am a person, weird maybe? but i only go for the choice i wan. i would giv it all my best shot even if there is no slightest chance. Stupid maybe?yea somethings when i think, its really stupid but thats me, as i am true and seriously true. The words i said was nv a lie. when i am true towards u, i am really only thinking about u. Mad or wad, how can it be possible? but i do know that its bad to play with ppl's heart therefore i will only hav that choice. No matter how weakly my flame is burning, if the flame is still nt put out, I will nv ever giv up! I promise i will just wait, wait and wait for that 1 fine little day to come. If it nv come, i will still move on with my own stupid thoughts, thinking that that day would surely come. I dont care wad other ppl tell me or how they discriminate u, but to me, u are just the u. Nth i say now will change my life now... just let me rest for awhile. Feeling so upset that i am. Hahas i still can laugh though, but it may nt be that real laugh from before. Dont say i am Emo as i am just bottling up my feelings so that i dont show people how weak i really am.
Ok haha it seems that i have written a compo Lols -.-lll i will continue tomorrow bahs~ Gd nite

Labels: and only u..., my thoughts will still be u

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Friday, May 15, 2009~~

9:26 PM

HarloS Long time No 'See' lols xP Yea! finnally my first nightmare is over hehe. though i hav 3 nightmare this year, it seems that i hav pass 1 lei. Gd job Gd job xD BUT!!! second nightmare coming soon T.T nvm ba, caz as people grow, they hav to learn to go though more and more stress. thus, all this little setback... wont make me lose confidence. I know some subject like for instance, A math paper 1, GG hahas... Felt sad due to always letting my gd teachers down... i hate making them sad as they really put in alot of efforts. Its just my own problem... I should hav be more hardworking T.T ~~ okok stop being emo Like Idiot lei hahs xD I will work will 110% from now on... NO 110000000000000000000, 0 digit recuring, infinite till i drop. I promise i will at least get A2 for A math zzzz I WILL PROVE IT!

Exam Life ~
nt bad darhs... everyday sleep at maybe 2 am? wake up at 5am to revise wad i have learnt, then go skool meet hell loh. However when i know that i did real well for some subject, it really motivate and build up my confidence, telling me nt to be sad on wad i did badly, but to move on and Aim higher next time. Learn from mistake is the most important thing hahas. Said this caz haha sure lots of mistake wad lols -.-lll everyday is just so stress. Workload seems so much. maybe i didnt start the revision early ba... next time must at least 1 month+ before. BUT there are really some gd advantage during exam period, mainly go skool take test then go home lei, like so gd, no ned sit in class so long --- how i wish everyday would be like that. Anyway i better stop dreaming and stop always thinking abt peaceful and relaxful life. Ok back to topic, 1 last ,,, best advantage is that, u will actually feel lighter as every single days passes. And Best of all, during the last day, before that exam, u will feel like giving everything u hav, dont care about sleeping and just study "after exam come back can recupate back those hrs of slp wad"^^ thats wad i always told myself inorder to push myself hahas. Anyway exam is over now, though it is abit lighter now, but i still hav the eurge and feeling to study more suddenly. Quite PumB up eH? it should be the work of constant focus test that makes us constantly studying ;)

YesTerDay~
Yeah! thats my last exam day. Gd man! Can Chile abit 'only abit hor' lei xD went Gym with michael, giffin, louis. Others PS us... say wan come then 'PROOF' disappear into thin air... nvm lahs haha somethings only xD relax relax we wont be inmature and scold u all xD Ok after Gym, kana Death pursuade by griffin... Unable to reject him lols... then just go there last minute loh. Meet at golden village [for those who donno, its a village in a rural area in Singapore which is GOLDen in colour ^^] HEHE! gt evelyn, griffin, nick`gou`la`si, sze ling, satay, jue yi and krystal. thought watch Angels & Demon. found out we watching X men Orgins after we go in and i check my sit T.T BUT!!! LEt me say first --> The Show is Awesome xD i like it alot. Nt bad Nt bad hahas. Fantastic lols. really if any1 go see, i can asure u that u will feel that the 2hr+ u spend is worthwhile de ^^ Watch abit lei go act go toliet go do something, but in the end didnt get to see " ". hahas nvm nvm xD then no choice then gone back into threater finish the awesome show xD After the show, slack and tok ccok in jp for awhile. hahas Any1 follow our class ppl do things SUre Get Influenced xD finally gone home on com, touch touch awhile and Sweet dreams finally.... Gt up at 11am today haahs 12 hr slp T.T xD

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Sunday, May 3, 2009~~

5:32 AM

Sat ~ every sat or sun early morning, first thing Dota with nick at 6am till 10am xD. Afternoon when to library to study till 4-5 with jun hong, evelyn, debbie, wan ying & sze ling. came only at 2 and study 2hr only cannot take it lei... Decided to go eat prata Downstair. After that went home slp and rot...
Sun ~ today prove so much that i am really a slacker and lazy bum. Slp till 1pm afternoon. Do daily stuff, eat and slack till 4pm. Then study only for maybe 30 mins? Zzz shouldnt study on my bed man -.-''' suddenly very sleepy... & cannot take it. So took a NAP of 4hr 30min till 8.30pm zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. I SWEAR I Will FINISH my PhySic TOday -.-''' GtG study!!! MIA for sure now. No more bloggin till after MYE. bYe~~

Nv say Die In Front of ur Books -.-lll wTf xD ~

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Friday, May 1, 2009~~

3:20 AM

HEh ... Exam period so i will be posting lesser. Dont Blame Me TeeHe xD !
~ Wed ~ Eng exam. Paper 1 i dont even know wad i am writing -.-lll Paper 2 compre was so hard -.-lll Welll, gd luk to my eng results.
~ Thurs ~ Chinese exam. Paper 1 was Ok ba. able to write alot of crap, so maybe can do well. However paper 2 was a killer ZZZzzz... the whole 1 half hr donno reading wad... Now i am nt sure whether i am a chinese T.T
Decided to slack and rest for a while. Met jun hui, mack, shue jia, yong lun, chong xun, arron at bernard's mum wake. Go there accompany him lols. At there SO much foood. I wasnt full after first serving -.- N decided to ask for second... then his aunt take so much for us. In the end, the amt of food was like Mountain lah. Beee hoon stack till so high, but nice N curry so Tasty!! xD
But really so much then jun hui they all blame me for calling. They even say they will help me by playing 'open number' which shue jia and jun hui know how to count and cheat, therefore always i kana chosen to eat those food. Zzz All also i eat 1, make my stomach bloated --> better do more situps everynite -.- After that we went to Jp. They follow me go Fairprice Extention buy 'Things'. Then after that shue jia go ****** buy voka. Smart Seh him xP after that, went around my estate to slack, play com n drink our stuff we bought. Play till 11pm lols.
~ Fri ~ Rotting ------ at home nowwwwww -.-lll

Labels: I wont giv up myself and euu

These twists and turns of fate
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