> A far-off memory

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Sunday, November 29, 2009~~

11:52 AM

Hais... i think lik i gt it... Lets be frens.

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Tuesday, November 24, 2009~~

1:52 AM

harlos, just went to cut hair, caz job starts tmr... must look neat first, caz its the first appearance given to ppl outside. hahas. In addition, done my injection today, typhoid jab was it? Ok Job tmr, so... lets rock and hav fun today while it last... :D

Die le, it seems that u really hav someone in ur mind... Am i a step slower as always? Hais... heartaching now, i must be unsuccessful. Felt lik crying out my mind... Hais... let me try and divert my focus to exercising now... better dont think too much now and feel saddened.
Will stay strong...

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Monday, November 23, 2009~~

12:51 PM

Its really too rush i guess... Yeah, time is nt riped. I just can't push myself to say it to u face to face. I fear lots, hell lots that i might fail again. Although i've gone through failure for so long, the fear is still there, not overcomed. Yea, [ kai bu liao kou rang ta zhi diao ], this song really explain everything. I hav nothing i can do... just hope for the best.
But one thing for sure... i am truly in love with u... I really wanna tell u straight - face to face. Hais, but then... T.T I keep having this a kind of a feeling, a gone case situation... as if that i stand no chance... I really blame myself hard on... where are my confidence??? ^#$#&%*^#@#!!! Tsk Tsk... saddened. As days goes, the feeling of distancing u is growing, i feel more lik a loser... somemore if job starts, tireness may cause us to distance... WAaaaaaaa i better stop thinking too much... abt the urge to get u. I mustn't be rush... must take it step by step at a time... Aiyo... i better go slp le, maybe can dream of u? lols :P my sense of humour... mus be lame =.=
Better nt think so much, step by step a time... Love u much, deep down in my heart~~
I believe time will also giv me the strength, to be ready and, the confidence to confess u to - straight on face to face... for real.

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

2:04 AM

Woots... first step to success in my life. Gt hired. Tmr mus go buy a black pants and take some kind of injection. Job will be starting on Wed anw. Hahas, so happy... (: Finally, i will be starting my adult life... The end of my boring holidays and the Start of hardworking days. Job, here i come xD
Wad i've done have done. Hahas, hope u lik the present i gav. Trust me, i really hav no intention of getting u or something. Caz, after much failure experience, i've learnt that - nv set my hopes high, if nt, when i drop, its gonna be very hurtful. However, that present i bought is rather quite unique, that i agree. I've nv bought such weird stuff be4... It mus be awkward to accept it. Hahas, but i really feel that it will suit u perfectly, so... hope u lik it ba. Wish u smile and be happy - always.

Aiyo... i knw its too early to think too much, as in... u knw, bgr. Yea, we barely knw each other, less than 2 month i reckon? Yes, we ain't so close too yet, as in we dont knw each other very well. Somemore, u told me be4 that u might aready hav somebody in ur mind ): So... i think its better for me nt to rush things too much, maybe we will still be friends for another 6 months? I think this would be fair to u and me. By then, if there is a change in ur mind of forgeting some1 u love, and we understand each other more, i believe i would still stand a small chance :D I really love u, so i will wait, perservere, to show u how much i do care abt u. This will then be by action, and nt just plain words. U knw, as the saying goes : action speaks louder than words. Yes, my hope ain't high, nevertheless, i will do my best - to get u :P
Will be waiting, i promise. The Love for one and only.

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Saturday, November 21, 2009~~

9:34 AM

Woah, time sure flies fast, even fast then light. Ok, tmr will be monday, my job interview. I hope i would be success, caz then i can work tgt with my classmates - griffin. However, if i am unsuccessful, then maybe i will consider to work at my uncle's office. The down point of this is that i would be working with people of older age group/ unfamiler. Hais... Sure have to find a job to spend my time anyway... Gd Luk to me tmr... hope the interview would be a successful one [for both griffin and me].

Planning to get u something weird... donno if u would accept it. Wait u for oppotunity, Love u for eternity.
Lightning Wei

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Friday, November 20, 2009~~

8:58 AM

Happy birthday day :D hahas, happy for u that u're finally 16. May u continue to look fascinating and keep up the goddess character of urs. :P my words seems funny eh? lols, but thats from my heart, hahas. Hope u will enjoy ur precious day today. Smile always... :D
Hais, i hab a weird wish, to celebrate birthday with someone i love. This wish was made when i was pri 6? yea, should be somewhre there bah. But, this dream has nv happen. T.T saddened... Hahas... u must be enjoying ur birthday with ur family or ur best frens rite? Abit sad that i am, since we were'nt that close to spend time tgt... Yea, i've nv been successful in relations be4... i should nt set my hopes too high, fear that i might nt be able to stand up after a great fall. I feel that its really hard for me to get u, but i will try- my best. However, i must start to set my thinking rite, that if it's really impossible [ once again ], i should take 1 step back then... But!!! still being a great fren of urs. Having such a beatifully and kind fren is an advantage or something to be proud of rite? Hehe lols, i think of u till siao tiao le :P ... okkk enough of mushy words =.= my hair follicles are standing... say this kind of thing, i think like quite weirdy too T.T
Enjoy ur Bd! Lightning Wei
p.s. Still no ideas of wad to get for u... sian, maybe may hav to giv u a belated 1... somemore hard to see u too :X

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Wednesday, November 18, 2009~~

8:41 AM

Hais... No progress. Am i fated to be like this? Anyway, glad that u're back (:
Today went to find job... Never done a job be4, so coming out to face the new challange in the world. Am taking this as an oppotunity to Burn some time / maybe gain some experience too hahas. Found some, but rejected them due to unfavourable conditions. Am I being picky? Nah, it's just that i only wanted to work for a month and with maybe sat and sun free, it would be best... Furthermore, it isn't my long term goal [ as in work as those job that i could find now ], i wanna work in bank, office or computer companies.... when i grow up. U know, like those with high salaries - that could support my future family as well as my parents. T.T hard goal to aim for eh? Nothing is ever easy, so, i will study hard/ nt giving up and aim for my ambition. Well, seems that i am talking big now lols, but i will do it, i promise. Maybe after i hab a stable income, my love luck will shine too =.= hahas. Yeah, pondering hard these few days, piority reason for kids like us to study in skool is none other than getting a fine job in the future rite?
Though now it's holiday - a long and draggy one, i felt that it isn't the holiday i wanted. During latest the sentosa trip with my mates, i felt emo [maybe?], nt that happy as be4. I vividly recalled the time our class spent, lets say the sentosa trip in june after Chinese O's paper. It's full of joy and laughter. But now, during that sentosa trip few weeks ago, i felt empty. I seriously felt that i am lacking of something... something or someone, that i could really share my greatest joy with... Yea, lack of a partner, i reckon? (Maybe at june, i was still thinking about playing with frens thats all.) Seeing those couples at the beach really makes me saddened. Hahas, regreted nt knowing u early... Sooo suay. Sohai. If time could really turn back, i wish that i had befriend with u nt after O's, but much earlier... Wooolala, time nv wait, thats for sure. Lets all move on and see how it goes. i'll try my best - hardest of best. [get u]
Additionally, Good luk to you, me- of finding a situable job and, good luk for all frens working.
Deeply in love thoughts, Lightning Wei

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Friday, November 13, 2009~~

4:18 AM

Aiyo... Suay la.

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Thursday, November 12, 2009~~

9:16 AM

Lols, i know i should be studying now but, i suddenly have the urge to blog Time Check--> 2.15am... Hais, i am so disappointed in myself... why did i nt have enough confident to ask u to be my friend earlier? If i had bulk my confidence up sooner, i would have know u much more... then we might be together now... Why am i such a stupid person? Why do i have such a stupid freaking ******* weakness - of when seeing girls of my choice, i cant even speak properly... Am i such a loser in my previous life that make me born with this confident in relations -weakness? Tsk Tsk... Anger boiling... hahas. Now my biggest problem is that i could not find any ways to be tgt and to know each other better... T.T You're really a lovely and good person, but u r always in full schedule. Hahas, i cant blame u as it's my fault for not confessing to u earlier... now that i could not "book" u to go out tgt, it's my biggest mistake too. Sadded that i am. But nevertheless, I thought hard- deeply, and i am really sure that i love u. It's nt like/crush/mind joke///, but it's love- eternity. I dont know how to tell u, but the real reason of why i never had stead be4, is that i always believe that BGR is a serious thing that could lead to forever life long partner. It could be a damaging weapon of hurting someone if we misuses Love or the phrase "I love u" To me, "I love u is a very strong and ought to be a touching phrase that i will use, only when i am 100% sure i love a person. T.T many ppl may say that i am thinking too much... Hais, it's real hard to explain now but i will tell it to u how i feel, in black and white, soon [proberly the period of ur birthday, written to u in 'letters' lols traditional love methods?]. Now i only wanted, is to ask u when are u free in the full scheduled holiday, maybe half of a day or wad ever so, to go out tgt. Hahas, i must be dreaming or thinking too much... It will never happen unless i bulk up my confidence now and ask u soon. [ Promised myself not to regret again, so i will make sure i will phrase the Qn rite to ask u out/provided u r free and accept it of course =.= ] Hahas, really wished that u could tell me when u r free/ to go out tgt and know more abt each other... Sian... really hoped time would roll back or not we are still studying in a same skool now... But in reality, time will nv rollback as, time and tide waits for no man... My only wish now, is that we could have some time to be tgt... after that then we could thing abt having BGR and then Forever Eternal partners. <100% sure that i love u, nt a joke pretty girl>

May wish come true and soon~~ Dream girl - perfect girl with underfined level in terms of character.
p.s. nothing scare to hide, if u [person i love] were to read my post, it would be best -hahas (:
but if u r nt 100% sure u r that person i love, plz keep this to urself and nt spreading to others. As only that girl knew that i love her [of course, since i only confess to her after her O's. and no1 knew abt it except her]
I do not ned any external help, i wanna be true to her, myself, showing my weakness or strength to her
myself. Thx... with utmost regards, Lightning Wei.

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

6:09 AM

Nv knew such a divine girl exists, she is so kind, so beaut, gd personality, and ... many more. I seriously wonder why she isn't as popular as she should be... - classmates or ppl in our skool must be badly blinded... hahas :P Anyway, now i am facing a real big time problem... how to get close to her and spend time with her??? Die >.<''' [love u]
Happy birthday to shermaine... from 4e2. Todays bowling was fun, though now hand cramp...

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Wednesday, November 11, 2009~~

3:53 AM

I have decided... I will get her. Nt for fun, but for ever.
confessed.

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Tuesday, November 10, 2009~~

11:31 PM

New life, new heart, new ideas, new thoughts... hahas
i seems lighter now... Glad i did my best for O's - ending soon.
Wad awaits is to confess and to hab fun.

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Tuesday, November 3, 2009~~

11:59 AM

life seems harder...

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..