> A far-off memory

~~Thursday, November 12, 2009~~

9:16 AM

Lols, i know i should be studying now but, i suddenly have the urge to blog Time Check--> 2.15am... Hais, i am so disappointed in myself... why did i nt have enough confident to ask u to be my friend earlier? If i had bulk my confidence up sooner, i would have know u much more... then we might be together now... Why am i such a stupid person? Why do i have such a stupid freaking ******* weakness - of when seeing girls of my choice, i cant even speak properly... Am i such a loser in my previous life that make me born with this confident in relations -weakness? Tsk Tsk... Anger boiling... hahas. Now my biggest problem is that i could not find any ways to be tgt and to know each other better... T.T You're really a lovely and good person, but u r always in full schedule. Hahas, i cant blame u as it's my fault for not confessing to u earlier... now that i could not "book" u to go out tgt, it's my biggest mistake too. Sadded that i am. But nevertheless, I thought hard- deeply, and i am really sure that i love u. It's nt like/crush/mind joke///, but it's love- eternity. I dont know how to tell u, but the real reason of why i never had stead be4, is that i always believe that BGR is a serious thing that could lead to forever life long partner. It could be a damaging weapon of hurting someone if we misuses Love or the phrase "I love u" To me, "I love u is a very strong and ought to be a touching phrase that i will use, only when i am 100% sure i love a person. T.T many ppl may say that i am thinking too much... Hais, it's real hard to explain now but i will tell it to u how i feel, in black and white, soon [proberly the period of ur birthday, written to u in 'letters' lols traditional love methods?]. Now i only wanted, is to ask u when are u free in the full scheduled holiday, maybe half of a day or wad ever so, to go out tgt. Hahas, i must be dreaming or thinking too much... It will never happen unless i bulk up my confidence now and ask u soon. [ Promised myself not to regret again, so i will make sure i will phrase the Qn rite to ask u out/provided u r free and accept it of course =.= ] Hahas, really wished that u could tell me when u r free/ to go out tgt and know more abt each other... Sian... really hoped time would roll back or not we are still studying in a same skool now... But in reality, time will nv rollback as, time and tide waits for no man... My only wish now, is that we could have some time to be tgt... after that then we could thing abt having BGR and then Forever Eternal partners. <100% sure that i love u, nt a joke pretty girl>

May wish come true and soon~~ Dream girl - perfect girl with underfined level in terms of character.
p.s. nothing scare to hide, if u [person i love] were to read my post, it would be best -hahas (:
but if u r nt 100% sure u r that person i love, plz keep this to urself and nt spreading to others. As only that girl knew that i love her [of course, since i only confess to her after her O's. and no1 knew abt it except her]
I do not ned any external help, i wanna be true to her, myself, showing my weakness or strength to her
myself. Thx... with utmost regards, Lightning Wei.

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