> A far-off memory

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Saturday, December 26, 2009~~

5:52 AM

Yeah... today was great. Ok! first, wake up late, thus unable to go shopping with frens... Anyway, went Jp to get a box and a card to wrap smthing up. And yea, suddenly thought abt ytd steamboat, like forgot to eat smthing. O YES! ClamS and shells... T.T really forgt abt those hahas. Anyway, just now just went to Popular to get a book called "how to get what you want" 'And Want What You Have'. Hahas, quite an ex book, but it teaches how to be confident and stuffs? hahas, shalln't elaborate it =x Ok! withdraw 600 and giv it to my parents and sibling. They kept rejecting it but i insisted and in addition to my lame excuse that "it's my first job so i'm gonna giv u $ next time, wait long long :D" hahas and so on, they hav no choice but to accept it - due to my persistance and stubborness. [ and of course, that excuse is fake, if u all havnt get the meanin of it :P as i had long vow that any $ i earn, i will part some to my family. ] And yea, lastly, pass the thing i made. I have no more regretz now. I will start reading my book now and i'm sure i will be successful the next time. Live on...
Yea, the pain - straight through my heart... the moment u took that, i knew its over. I am very sad... yes, i really am. But wad to do? Although i learnt from pass that love can be nurtured, but i just dont like to force my way into love. I feel that, if someone doesn't love u as how u love that person, it's pointless to force the relation. Yeah, i know that this time, i really did my best... but there's always room for improvement. So... i'll live on, and challenge the world. Everlasting frens~ Everlasting Love~ I will do my best and try to forget u... for the best of all.
p.s. hope u like that handmade thingy.

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Friday, December 25, 2009~~

9:51 AM

Christmas was really fun. In addition of today's steamboat... Sryz that i was late guys :P hehe. Ok, lets prepare for the upcomin chalet in a day time.
Hahas, so stupid that i am, to walk pass her shop almost once everyday... Just found out that there's more than 1 of it... in other malls =.-''' Ok... anyway, i vow to stop doing stupid stuffs that i ought not to be doin. And i vow that, when i'm richer and older, then i would think abt love. I hope by then, i will succeed, unlike all previous conclusion. Ok, must really force myself not to think abt u so much from now on... though will be still dreamin of u of course, as u know, it's free for all to dream xP. But for now that i hav learnt to face the reality, i hav to succeed in learnin to giv up. Painful decision, but for the best of all. Lastly, today's gonna be a good good day.
Will always... secretly [12][15][22][5] u ~

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Wednesday, December 23, 2009~~

12:22 PM

O yes arh! finally, hard work has paid off. Today marks the end of my first job- marche. Hahas, i'm feeling quite satisfying caz just jumped over a stepping stone in my life. Well, shall not be sad and elaborate the grandma story abt the leaving, more would come in the future. Hahas, gratz myself being so SO so successful in my first ever job. Confident and moral up ;D Ok! Should really spend some time to relax and slack And more Excercise too. Keep fit and Healthy Always :D
hmm... done my little handcraft, though much credits nt from me, but still...aiyo, hais... no point talkin abt it, no chance givin it away anyw.
Seems to be avoiding me, yeah, i can feel it. if my presence would make u rather awkward, i rather nt exist in ur life... i hate myself givin u things that makes u guilty, i hate myself for being so straightforward, i hate myself for nt knowing u earlier, i hate myself for being such a mute. Regreted it, if it's really impossible, i really still wans to talk to u and be frens with u. It do seems hard now... Learnt my lesson, nv will i repeat this mistake again in my life~
Really really wanna talk to u... much. In melancholy emotion T.T

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Friday, December 18, 2009~~

9:13 AM

Sky's darken as days goes by... Smiles of the sun seems voided by the dark clouds.
Hi guys, i'm here to blog again, as be4. Erm, gonna quit marche soon :P 24th hahas. I hope i wont miss the staffs there, caz they're really gd to me & my frens. Everyday seems so smooth sailing at there. Hahas, time sure flies fast. 1 month of work finally is comin to an end. Ok, i've decided to go chalet ba, i dont wanna regret missing my classmates after we seperate and continue each's own path. Hahas...
the 1 i truly miss, is u... Do u know how much I love u? nvm, caz u'll nv know it. hahas... But, i'm still gonna try, just try, to make smthing for u for cristmas. Hand-make it, though havnt started it yet... i'm sure it will take up some of my time... but for u, a thousand times over. Sian... uncertain if u will have time to accept my gift...
So damn obsessed- Love~~

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Tuesday, December 15, 2009~~

1:13 PM

Today, almost late for my work... luckily i caught the train in time and reach my workin place 5mins late... Wosh =.= hahas nv get any scold caz i apoligized be4 they could even say anything :D Work today for me was quite special today, caz for dessert/pizza bakery counter, they lack 1 person for closing. So in the end, they arranged me to go help out the counter. T.T scarld two of my fingers, caz first time learning to use those machines to bake pizza and bread. But it was easy though, caz the heatin is done by the machines and since i am still nt qualified to make the pizza and stuff, so the mentor or the person in charge of the counter did most of the stuffs. He was kind anyway xD. O yes... i dont feel lik havin the mood to do anything, even work. It's only 1 day has past and i am feeling so zzz [missin on smthing]. But then, wad pushes me over my limit to continue focusing on work till the end was, the task that i hav taken, which is that, i promise to giv my best in my job, though it's short term. Yea, it's somekinda responsibility rite? When i took up the task, i must finish it well no matter how hard it goes... Ok, tmr is off day for me, i better take a good rest and hope i will feel much better... Bye~
Thx for the memory u gave me... but in my heart, i know best myself that, the memory weren't enough. Ppl can say that i am greedy or wadever, but... wad i really trully wan - is the real u. Yea... i'm obsessed wif u, that i agree.

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Monday, December 14, 2009~~

8:34 AM

Prom can only be described in 1 word~ too good to be true. Hahas, i cheated :P [no. of words] Yea, the feeling there was so good, and all were havin phototakin and stuffs. Hahas, time sure flys fast... the party ended in an blinkin of an eye... the party was at the climax, but i'm nt as elated? Hais... i seem to be losing something... a thing that could make me real, fully happy. Yea... just 4 letters, but withhold deep meanings. Thats wad i hav nv gotten, thus, i am nv happy to my fullest. Hahas. Ok better stop daydreaming abt those impossible and look forward to life. Maybe sometime good might folo up into my life.
Ok! today, i would lik to share with u guys, one of my long term goals. HAHas, it's to be a commando :P lols, seems hard rite? Yeah, thats y i mus really master my breast stroke... i cant finish my 8 lap with freestyle to get my swimming awards. But first, i must hav a gd and strong body, so, i'm gonna x2 my daily training of situps and push up. Hope goals could be reached :D Byes~
many goals- that i hav, just that one special one was euu~

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Sunday, December 13, 2009~~

9:58 AM

Yea... today gona be a day, a big day, of fun and excitment. 500+ gone for this... hahas, but i promise that, i wont spend anymore this yr. Must save $. Hope every1 will hab fun today. Lets... Party :D haahas.
Hais... everyday of my workin days were great, seriously. My first job in my life and was so successful. No troubles no harsh scoldin, no quarrals no nothing. Everyone there are so gd, made tons of frens there. Hahas, maybe i really do hab quite a gd personality eh? [self praising LoLs] hahas... yea, i always believe that if u respect others, this will gain urself respect frm others. And, when workin, regardless of wad situation, always giv ur best, so that best will be returned back to u in some ways or other. HA! work is real easy and smooth sailing. Yes, any work is tough and never easily but it's just tat it's easier than i expected. Now abit lik sadded caz gona quit soon... hahas, enjoy life euu know?
Anyway, lets alll really really enjoy prom tmr. ;D IF possible, must take pic with everyone- memorial purpose. So Long and lets reLAX~~

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Friday, December 11, 2009~~

1:11 PM

Hais... thinkin back demoralised me alot. Maybe i had watched too much of those touchin movies when i was young, that made me thought of a stupid dream at that time. Stupidly that i was always hopping for my turn to come. Erm... sort of lik givin a girl that i love- a necklace, helping her put on tat necklace too. Aiyo... must hav been influenced by those ~~ shows hahas. But maybe this is why as an advantage that, it teaches me to love, and really thought hard abt wad's the most important thing i wan in the world. Hahas... but then, cons is that... it makes me eyein for "special" and "impossible to get girls"? Maybe the real bad things is that it makes me to set my goals too high? So??? Should i lower my standard? Hais... yea i should... i ain't that great either. Bye Bye to my stupid dreams and hope... and face the reality bah.
Sohais...
so long~~

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Thursday, December 10, 2009~~

8:53 AM

Find that guy that will pick up every piece of your shattered heart & put it back together; Replacing it with a piece of his. ~ my love quote from facebk... find it quite meaningful, but... seems that it wont be used soon and for now...
Hahas... today should be my off day, but it seems that the restrauant neds manpower, thus i agreed to go back and work... u knw, extra $ and since there's nthing to do at home anyw...
Errr, actually like like the place and environment already, but erm... i hate serving ppl :P hence will be quitin sooner than expected ;D hahas... i'm best at giving excuses as all know... But its all white lies xD.
Ok... must get rdy for prom night gear, since its cfm. Hahas... must wear smthing nice for sure... a gear in orchard ion POA shop caught my mind... but its lik 300? ... ... havnt get pay spent so much? somemore a addidas basketball shoe caught my mind too... high cut of abt 160? wow... if i really buy both, half my pay is gone =.- so... gonna decide it when i go there again on fri - sun. Hais... work is sure tiring... Buaills and so long...

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Friday, December 4, 2009~~

2:20 PM

Gonna ask u somedays -soon. Now focus on my own life.
Bulking Up confidence... stay cool. Be myself~~

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Thursday, December 3, 2009~~

1:35 PM

Hehe... Fun is comin soon. But be4 that, on 8th dec, there will be a preopening at somerset marche. Gt invited to go there and eat for free. Hahas... its a high class swiss restaurant with low pay--- hahas jkjk/ if jenson [boss / lao da] read this, i'm dead meat ^^ ;D Anw, i still hab 1 free slot to invite some1 to go there eat for free too. Hais... there's no1 special to invite now... maybe will just ask around my frens if any is free. Somemore my given time slot is from 12 to 3pm on 8th. Hahas... After eating, still nedta rush back to vivo and work night shift. Kinda rush and tight man... Ok, shalln't worry that much for it. I'm gonna get rdy to buy my prom night wear and be ready for fun soon- prom/ chalet. Must enjoy as much as possible now... be4 'dooms' day comes next yr.
Sooo long... and be happy always.

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..

~~Wednesday, December 2, 2009~~

10:30 AM

Hey guys... sry :D It has been awhile since i post. Erm... gd news! Will only be posting when free or something funny/emotional/fun/etc... strike my mind.
Today... hahas, thought abt my job, no high pay... However, i found the reason to continue the job... shallnt giv any thought from my frens - to change job. Well, it's caz, tat, i am working in an environment with kind and more experience ppl. Best of all, i learnt alot in my workin place. Working there really giv me plenty time to reflect on myself. It help me to find myself back... My true self - the nv giv up and die attitude and to aim for almost perfect. Most importantly, gaining back my desire to be the best. Yea... u knw? Its fine to heed other's advice... it's fine to accept help from others. Do u knw, that accepting ppl's help is an act of a person who is willing to learn more? Do u knw tat, falling and accepting the failure, is an attribute of the strong? The weak will nv stay weak... while the strong, might nt advance as much as the weak. Sounds hard eh? Well... the simplfied meaning is that only the independent are really the weak ones. When fail, they will most proberly take the longest to recover. As in... for instance... when i was young, i dont believe in any1. I do things myself... And i always thought that things would be best if i was the one doing it. I'll nv wan or ask for help from any1... I'll try to do all things by myself... Be independent. Yesh, neither it's wrong or wad to be independent... nor to accept failure. Yes, it would be best to get everything done perfectly... But the world doesnt go this way. Sometimes, when being independent, we will find ourselves trapped in stress... keeping all things and problems to ourselves... And becaz of couldnt accept failure, if we were to fail once... we will drop real deep into the pithole. Things would be better if we aim slightly lesser than perfect. Same goes for failling... Nv be afraid to fail, to do things wrong. As long as we knw that we tried our best, if we fail, take it as a learning point. And of course, learn from mistake and improve. Thus, i tell myself that... i'll nv stay weak as a weakling. Of course... if i could get the best out of somethings, i will do it... just like a race, dont think of it's a must to get first. But think it in another way, i will do my very best to win others, let others be proud of u. This way, there will be less pressure on ourself. Also, if we weren't individualist, when we failed something, we could share the pain tgt... of course, if we were success, we hav ppl to share the joy with ;D hahas... Yeah, even ppl that likes independence [like me sometimes maybe?] they still needs a fren/ partner/soulmate, thats wad i believe.
All and all, yes... i gt defeated once again... as always. But this time, i learn to be confident, to endure the pain and channal the pain to the strength of making myself a stronger person, so that i can stand up again faster... I believe... that i will be successful and stronger after many failures. I trust myself... I'm nt born to fail... but to... born and fail uncountable times And be successful in the end.
Thx for reading my 'compo'... Sooo long guys... byes~

These twists and turns of fate
Little Wonders..