Thursday, February 25, 2010
6:41 AM
Hey, today's funny hahas. Ok trouble first, Gp essay, dead meat. Hope i'll improve after Tcher marked and correct me. Hmm Pe in mornin is great, with 10a1 class. 8 rounds for start as it's our first actual Pe lesson. After skool, went to run another 10 rounds, infact it's 8 only -.- y count for me -.- make me happy for nthing. Then, decided to tell the teacher in charge for Student C, that i'hav already been selected as Sports Leader, however, after miss zhang's logical explaination, i reluctantly accepted to go for the interview. Just answer any wadever Qn they asked. Then after the interview, requested to hav a day more to decide which of the council i'm more interested in. Home tutor [form T] was kind to call me and share his thoughts/ point of view abt havin additional CCA. I really appreciate it, but i guess i would wanna try, for my testimonial. So, thx for ur advice anw.
Ok, went Queensway with my gd fren, hahas. she needs her track shoe, so brought her go there see see loh. Aiyo... girls arh... hahas. Ok walk back quite a long distance and sweat quite abit. I guess it's only right to send her back home rite? as she accompany me for the run earlier and also, she's a girl soo hahas, safety mah. yea, long walk har! cfm lose weight le xD. Ok she went home and i took 198 back homme. then, when reach jp, happily carry my bag, left the bus and head straight home. Ok Reach Home put down my bag to take my shoe out, just thought of my nike white shoe bag -.- o die my track shoe. Dash back jp interchange Hahas lucky gt back my shoe bag man, the bus driver as well as those bus assitant were excellent, i should say. They did their very best to find that shoe bag back for me. Hahas found, and thx them lots. Thx again man! i guess in this world, there's still kind and helpful ppl.
Student C Sport C... hais... i feel bad for wad i've done. Guility conscious~ I better starts to learn to think be4 cfming things.
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Wednesday, February 24, 2010
8:17 AM
Ok, doin a 400x4 relay, 800m and 1500m long dist during sports day next week or so? Also, basketball as well as netball with wen jin and sheng jie. Lets work hard towards it. Self torturing starts tmr. Never will i let Garnet down ^^
Pe is gonna be fun with class 10b2 :D Math lesson and class is gonna be enjoyable too. Lastly Math lecture will be the best of all. Hahas!
Onwards and stay forefront~ no goin back.
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Tuesday, February 23, 2010
8:22 AM
hey, u told me to follo my heart... i guess my answer is u, if u wan the truth. i really wanted to tell u that, no matter wad changes, i still love u. Take today as an example, the steps i took towards u, i almost wanted, wanted to take and hold ur hand, and say that i really really needs u to be a part of my life... but then, that last step towards u, i took back myself, that saddeness, that i felt of bein no point anymore, i decided nt to say those precious words. i guess i 'll save it, caz i dont wanna let u feel guility anymore. I realised that i'm too selfish before - indirectly, that i nv thought of how u feel. u do hav ur life, and the ideas u wan for ur life, therefore, i mustnt be such a jerk and interfear ur life. i love u and i respects really u. Takin the first step to tell me things shows that u're no longer lik before, u've improved, matured and u are no longer a lousy person u use to say urself [though u nv were in my mind].
I really love u, so much, so much tht nth can ever describe it. I find myself funny to sutter my words in front of u, the racin heart beat down with rhythm till the blood around my whole body. but i guess, we aint meant to for each other, inifnite reasons pulled us apart.
If one day, that god stop playing with me, when u finally accepted me, i will want to be with u for sure... but that will be if i'm still unattached.
Treading between water... move on. Life is such a puzzle~
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Monday, February 22, 2010
5:32 AM
Hahas a girl lend me her umbrella earlier during the heavy downpour. I asked her if her frens needs it first, but then they said it's ok. Though i got a weird feelin that they might needs it but i guess i took her umbrella as she seems to be a very kind girl and rejectin her request in front of her frens might make her feel awkward hahas. Though in the end i lend the umbrella to krystal and her fren jane [ as they mght need it more than me, caz i' a boy ] i guess i'll go to her class tmr to return her, her item, as well as a big thank u. Anw thinkin back, it was lik the same previous thing happen be4 hahas.
Skool was as usual, fun interesting and accomplishable. Haha so happy of my POA class, seems that 3yrs gonna be a real deal :D I guess god really aint that bad, i always thought god was always againsting me - just took back my wrongly words. Hope god giv me even more interesting life, that i could even forget who i really am.
Lovee, i guess it really isn't a time for me, as i wont be giving it all to who i am with for now and i'll feel guility abt it. Still needs time, i guess, when i finally ready, i'll go for it. I tell myself that it's allrite to be sad and empty for sometime, but i promise, to myself, that i aint stayin stadnent lik a dummy for ever. I'll just get one who's better, though it's gonna be hard, but then i'll make it, caz unlike be4, i gotten myself something, something that turns me into a new person.
To- the one i truly love.
i guess u even know of my blog so i find safe to write things here. it isnt alot, so i guess even if any1 reads it, it's still ok. i'm posting it here caz i dont wan to forget wad i say today, now, i wanna serve this as a memory, a good one. Maybe next time, i could be proud to tell u that i really love u before, that time - this time, as i wish to remember the feelings for u.
I guess we really aint mend for each other as we're very different. Yes, i do agree to u that to some extent we did think the same, eternity love or wadever so... but then, maybe it's smthing that keeps us distant. Ok, now abt myself and my weakness. I find myself so fkin shit, when i couldnt bring myself to tell u how i really felt. I cant express my inner self to u. i couldnt. wadever u we chat be4, no matter how stupid i felt, i just let it go... i pretend being happy in front of u, but i guess i'm just plain stupid. The real reason y i didnt start any relation was all, becaz i find it hard to forget u. I donno wtf why i feel this way though it's true that i dont know u well, the time we spend were minimal, but then, some part of me still hav u, and i know it. I do ask myself often, hey y am i still thinkin of u when theres so much wonderful ppl out here? this i do hav to agree that there's some really gd ones that i've seen. I guess i do wan to know them hahas, u know befriend with them.
Ok enough said, i'll move on. I use my next one month to socialise as well as recoving the my sadness tank and filling it up to brim with happiness. I promise, after one month's time, i'll be able to take u as a gd fren, and nt some lovely dovy. Then, I'll start my engine, to find my near perfect soulmate, which will be much better of course, i guess hahas, as i might hav some in my mind. However, wadever we changed, Do stay in touch and dont forget me, as i'll nv forget u, for makin me do those handycraft tat i dont enjoy. Jk only Hahas as it's my own stupid childish idea i think :P I hope i've stop u from feeling guility after now.
Wish u well, ur best. I will nv shred tears after this, i swear, so lets move on together.
See each other often in future, as frens - forever and never changing.
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Friday, February 19, 2010
7:54 AM
hmm, seem that many ppl misunderstood wad i post eariler... As i was rushin things just now to make a short post be4 goin My sec skool form T house warmin, that post gave the wrong meanin, i guess, after readin it again myself 2. Wad i really meant was that, there really lots of ppl out there thats better than wad we can expect. As in, there ppl with absolute gd character... wadever positive things lah hahas. Yes this i really wad i felt, yet i forgot to mention abt my past ppl's, as it then seems lik i'm sayin those past fren bad -.-
Wad i can really say to amend my previous post was, frens that i've made previously are gd obviously! I dont make fren that sucks at their ways. And 1 thing to mention is, i really dont mind sayin it, i still feel for some1, though i told some of my frens that i'll forget her, but i cant be fast at that, which is really why till now i havnt even start any relation, still an "unwanted single" hahas. I really cant bottle up this fact thus putting it out here though i didnt really wanted to at first. I really do need some1, to speak to... some1 willin to listen and allow me to speak out my mind, to get hell lot better, caz the girl i love, will nv know how i feel -as 1 part is i'm such a coward... fearin abt things that i cant really disclose, but the reason y i dont intend to speak to her.
Only way to lessen my agony, move onwards and be happy towards life everynow and then.
one last thing, if i ever confess, it shows that u're the best in my mind, as i nv regret my choice of u~ [talkin to myself hahas]
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3:01 AM
These few days, after pondering much, i figure out that it might be a blessing in disguise for me, to nv get into love. Caz now that i'm more expose to more ppl in these world, i guess that if i was in relationship before and till now, i might, i dont wanna say, but, i might really really change my mind, as better girls just come flowing. Hmm i guess, i have to really stop believeing too much in loving at first sight as it might nt be very accurate. wad is more assuring for an everlasting love - that i wanted, was to start communicating with the girl i am fond of but still unsure abt her. Then slowly, learn abt her, know if she was a gd or bad girl, know more abt her, be closer to her, and share troubles, different points of views abt life and stuffs, listen to her trouble, share mines too. After all this, i call it still, As good frens. If i'm really really sure that i still love her and will continue love her forever, i'll then start working more into getting more closer, nt as in physically or wadever, but heart and feeling. Thats then, i'm sure i'll get eternity love and also a true soulpartner for the rest of my happy life HAHAS :D
There's always better girls out there [character]/ everything, i finally understand nt to rush things ;D
When sayin I love u, that girl must be the one and only - best to me. ^^
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Wednesday, February 17, 2010
3:40 AM
Hey hey, today was kindof a ^^ to me lols. ok lets start with skooling. Went skool today, was supposed to bring my passport to zap a copy in skool for my cca cher. But then, when i was goin to leave, i put my passport down and took my keys on the table to open my door... tada! Felt guility deleyin my teacher in the admin stuff for the oversea trip -.- but nvm, given grant to bring it by tmr caz some mates didnt bring it 2 :POk! why did i post today? caz, today is the day i get a home room [home class] and it's the first day for me to see my 3yr classmates. Ok lets talk abt going into the class room. me and my fren SJ reached the class on time, some of the few early 1 though. So we waited there for awhile, curiously lookin around to see the students in the class. It was 8.50 then, our home tutor was late by 5 mins and when he came in... Me and SJ giv out a sigh. I crack out a humour "Hias, sian la so suay, class no chio bu -.- 3 yrs die liao." SJ corrected me, " hey, think of the bright side mah, at least we can concentrate more on our studies." "yeah quite true... arbo we opt to change class?" he agreed and both of us made a sian expression. Just then, wads so funny is that the timing really damn zhun, a girl, i should say, very gd 1, walked pass. "Wa seh, chio bu lai liao," he whispered to me. "Aiyo she so chio cfm nt our class de la -.-," i replied. She walked away, then we both sigh again. Thenn, the timing so Zhun again, must be god playing tricks with us! donno y, just after we sighed, she walked back, and lookin into our classrm. Mr Faizid then walked out and i guess, asked her if she was in 10s6. HA! she gave a light nod, and went into the classrm. SJ and me was laughing lik hell hahas. He then sacastically answered, "hey seem that we dont hav to change class anymore rite? she can be our xiào hua le." I defended myself by saying, "hey, dont judge the book by it's cover." In the end, after knowing her alittle, she seems to be quite a good person hahas.After skool, she [dont wanna disclose her name caz ned ask permission HA!] went outside of the classrm to wait for her fren which is in another class beside ours. I said to SJ, hey our classmate :D Guess WAD HE REPLIED*%^&? He shouted beside her, "hey Cw, U say she chio rite, wan her phone no. just say lah!" She turned around and looked at me, i glance at her blankly, surprised by my frens 'sec skool culture of jokin.' she turned away and i saw her face blush... man, i was lik face red too donno wad to do -.- Luckily a light bulb popped out within miliseconds, i replied, "Har? U talking to me ar?" then i walked to the nearest toilet to take cover. I guess smthing will happen tmr ha :X Anw, i promised and swore to God that, I'll LEArn To Get Use TO ur CULture!!! I swear to SJ.Ok, lets keep it short, seems lik i'm writing too much today. After Bball training, as usual, took 174 bus home. On the way back, 3 Rv girls board the bus at their skool's bus-stop. They walk passed me and then, after awhile, walked back and stand in front of my seat. Cant really explain how it really looks lik, but just bare with me :D They started chatting in front of me, speakin quite loudly, thinkin that i deaf or wadever -.- they talked abt the air-con of the bus is quite smelly, and at first i thought i'am the one who they're sayin is smelly. But then i did bathed in skool and changed back to my skool uniform. Then one of the girl took her Hp and took and pic of me (I swear she took me even though she tried to use her textb to cover her Hp slightly, as i hear the 'Chickki') then they open their tb and cover their nose, and talk abt smthing lik "hey my book seems to smell nicer." after awhile, one of them asked me, "erm do u find the bus smelly?" i then replied a "har"? then the other 2 came in and start a conversation blabla. Suddenly they asked if i gotta fb account and if they can add me... i was lik har again, but gave them in the end as they seems fine and quite gd lookin :S they then continue ask things lik hey, wad skool are u from, see i told u he from mi - another replied and so on. Luckily bus reached Jp and i Ziao, if nt donno how reply their weird Qn. they waved a bye and i wave back but nv replied the bye Ha!I guess my life is really gonna change into a much more interesting 1 hahas, nt gonna stay stadnent forever :D always thought that i always nv fail to giv ppl a bad impression of me, a person who is nt very gd to socialise with due to my stern look ;( but now, i've gt a new mind set of myself now. Hey, Nt Praising myself Ok! hahas ^^self confidence levelled up~
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Sunday, February 14, 2010
10:15 AM
Today's really fun man! hahas ;D but i'm really dead beaten so... i'll keep things shorter and more general. From now, I would lik to keep some info low profile as it's some kinda of my privacy and i really kind of find it weird when frens ask abt wad i blogged be4... u know, everything u did ytd is being prompt by ur frens the next day -.- I mean, it's nthin special for me to brag abt thus i try to keep it short and simple from now on, unless it's smthing real real stupid and lame like PraWNthing [that even i, laughed after pondering back] or some really Too wonderful to be true event, i'll be sure to share my joy u all readers hahas :DTo - anon, erm sry to put u into my blog, but as the taq box's capacity is too duh small, i would lik to complete wad i urge to clarify. Erm... cont from taq - even if u're nt some1 i know, that u just pass by and read my blog, still, i wont mind sharing the whole thing with u as sometime, i do find it hard to keep things all to myself... So i hope at least u might leave me something lik ur msn username if possible, for me to share the situation with - someone who is really interested abt me and the person i love. thx again.Lastly, i'll lik to end it with a quote from Me HAha lols... too dead tired to continue bloggin le -.-Wadever u do, when it comes to love, Nv Ever Tell the person abt how u feel for her before knowing each other quite well, Or worst, telling her abt loving at first sight! Trust me, as it'll caz awkwardness and u're bond to fail 90% of the time [dare nt say 100% caz ever i, do believe in loving at first sight... just that i dont succeed]. Learn to control ur feeling and keep it low. Till u get to know her well - familier and able to speak with the person everynow and then, thats when u ought to then explode ur feelings to her, to melt her heart.True life experience~
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Wednesday, February 10, 2010
6:27 AM
Move on. Getting the hang of my Skool life now hahas. :D Life is so damn great now, hell yea :D
But then, stress has yet to start -.-
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Saturday, February 6, 2010
5:01 AM
Was supposed to post on ytd but fell asleep be4 posting =.=hmm, Mi orientation last day was alot better then the first few days. Lols, finally god let me dance with a person that i would call a girl. Previous dance was like wtf... with girls that is... =.= hahas. Anw, after the dance, i was astonished by the girl whom i danced with. she asked if i am attached. (hmm, i guess i aint that bad looking as how i use to thought to be) hahas. Ok, lets skip how the day goes by as i dont think there's any special thing to mention. Umm, during the finale of the orientation which is the last part of event of the day, they mention to us that we can find any person u would like to dance with. Then, i had someone in my mind that i would like to ask for a dance. She was a gd fren i just made. hahas. hmm, i felt that she was quite unique, and good looking yea. But after much thought, i think it might nt be a gd thing - to ask her for a dance as i know that she aready have a boyfren and it might be alittle awkward. hahas... so in the end, i dance with my fren- a guy, and many girls around was lik laughin at us, saying that we're funny Lols -.-Ok, gtg to get some admin stuff done, for the march basketball overseas trip camp... Hais... so tiring these days.
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Wednesday, February 3, 2010
4:35 AM
Hi hi, today was great. Hahas, i'm so so happy today, as i felt that there isn't any boundary or limit for me. My new Coach said that he will stretch me. hehe hahas. Hmm, yea, perviously i thought my standard in basketball was at limit... but now, it seems that i could be hell lot better. Hmm, just shock how high i could jump and hang in the air to shoot the ball in. Hahas, i'm sure i'll be a brand new person after some time. I promise i'll be back to my secondary skool to defeat mack, Soon hahas. Playing Kobe style, speed and jump - my style. Be the ace...
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Tuesday, February 2, 2010
3:38 AM
Hmm, i guess today was quite an surprising day. It has been long since i blushed. Lols =.= It was during break today, u know, as usual, went to the canteen and get some food. Since i'm still quite green in this skool, i hadn't try most of the food in the canteen. So i decided to buy their dry noodle meepok today. When i went back to my table with the food, i gt a glance of a pre-u1 girl. She was sitting on the same bench just beside me with her frens. I sat down, and out of the blue, she started the conversation. Ermm, how much is ur prawn noodle? I turn and look at her eye... blush :XxxxI stuttered my words but am glad to produce a reply. Err, it's 2.20. I decided to hide my expression quickly by taking a sudden bite of the noodle. She then asked, err, isit alright if i can take one of those prawns? Once again, i was like... !!! like choked by the air =.= i was like stopping for 3 seconds looking at her. Luckily, a word just came out from my mouth that i wasn't even thinking abt using that word to reply. luckily man, it is a word that fits her question. "Sure." after saying that, she pushes her bowl nearer to my bowl. then i took a prawn and gave her. JUST a Prawn... and i was like donno wad am i doing. When she took her bowl away, my sense came back. Lols am i stupid, y only giv her 1 prawn??? Mind blank maybe. I took the initative and asked. Ermm, do u wan more? I can giv u more since i dont eat much prawns. "hahas, it's ok. Thx hahas," she smiled. Smiled back. After finishing our food, i went to get a drink... then i think back, Lols Prawn noodle and dont eat much prawn? Hahas...Anyway, it's gd to make new frens, but i'll nv forgt my old frens, espically those special ones and the one and only, that i love. Move On.
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